Walls

I can feel them
creeping up
just like they used to
those walls
o the walls
'cause it's so hard
it's just so scary
to care so much
so long
so hard
and not be sure

and, don't worry,
I'm working on
talking myself
out of it
'cause I know
I do know that
I can't have you
and have my
impenetrable wall
and I want you
o, I do
don't I?

So I build
and I tear down
a brick up
two bricks down
a few more laid
another destroyed
and while I construct
and deconstruct
I wonder
I plan
how high?
how tall?
leave a gate?
a door?
just a window?
or no entrance at all?